new member

i just lost everything i wrote initially here.

uhm, quick outline:
- friend introduced me to concept of "demi", i researched and found here
- i think i am demisexual because the majority of my sexual relationships began after knowing the other person for > 1year
- the one time things moved fast was very uncomfortable for me (knew her for 1 week, had my very awkward first makeout session, had no desire for a second)
- i am generally pretty bad at reading new social situations anyway which leads to awkward reluctance on my part to take the initiative

so here i am. hi. hello.